Happy Always

House I LIKE

2009-02-02T17:54:00.002+07:00

i went to VN for my holidays with my fr. We took bus from here to HCMC and we have other friend to bring us around there.

We visited many places but one place that caugh my attention was the palace in Dalat. The concept make me think of my future house.

I wish my house to have 2 seperate living room. One is for public i.e. frs, or guest, and the other one is for family. The one for guest would be look more professional, and the one for my own family should be sth that increase intimacy...

PS: i think i lost my writing skill...can't express myself in writing now :(..okie hope u get the idea lolz.

I am no more.

2009-01-25T11:14:00.002+07:00

i used to keep myself very tigh, i scared of ppl looking cheap on me, i scared i behave wrongly, but i start to dun care now. i do thing that ppl would look down on...yes, this is me now...i still work hard though :)

My New Year Wish

2009-01-20T00:00:00.002+07:00

My BD wish is to be with you. I still keep my wish and i wish it to come true. But this new year wish, i just wish to be happy with no worry and scareness. I am on my feet. It has been hard just a week to wait, and i dun want to hide myself in the room and feel bad. I got to get up and see the world. I will just do anything that make me happy for its sake. I dun want to care too much now... My wish is still my wish, and i keep wishing it, but at the same time i promise myself to be happy...If my wish is magic, I will still get it no matter what...So let see what will be happening... Dun blame me of being bad, i am just too lonely to be alone...

Eye Shaking

2009-01-10T10:17:00.002+07:00

erm...not sure if it is the correct term to use, but if u are Cambodian u would understand...hehe...Well, it has been a few days that my eyes keep shaking alot more than normal. People say it is bad sign, some say it is good sign...So..erm...let see what will happen. I might be travelling to province this evening, anyway ....

No Goal

2009-01-08T11:25:00.002+07:00

I have always been the person who set the goal or destination, and keep myself on track to achieve it. I have been using this word "Define your goal and pave the way to reach it". It was pretty successful so far i.e. to get scholarship, to get back to work in cambodia,...and many more...

But now i am completely lost in a deep blue sea. I dun know what is my goal now, should i be doing what ? I am lost, totally lost...I lost my goal, and i do not know if what i am doing is for what. is it the correct track ? i dun now... this make me lose the desire to do and to love what i am doing now... Now is asking myself, if i succeed in what i am doing now, do i achieve a goal ??? wonder....

3 consecutive bad dreams in one night.

2009-01-07T08:12:00.003+07:00

3 dreams for last night :

- I am sorry to say that i dreamt one of my in-law relative pass away in a very sadly.
- I dreamt as i got knocked by another car while i was parking.
- Third one is like in the movie ( i din watch movie lolz). Like i went into a gym place, then accidentally i cause the electricity cut down. So everywhere was black out and cause the flying balloon swinging around and fall down. i was so terrified to see many ppl fall down and died coz of my act...I was more more than sorry for that...If that really happen, i would never forgive myself...

Well Well, wish all those would not happen...

Song i am signing now - Take me to your heart

2009-01-06T09:35:00.001+07:00

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl
[Chorus]
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here todayLove is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
[Chorus]

Bad news around still

2009-01-05T11:39:00.002+07:00

i woke up my my collegue's call... i never believe he would call me this early...he called me to take back his camera and with a bad news that his father in law pass away last night while i was having bad dream...i was stunned to hear this...I am really sorry to hear this...will travel to join his funeral after writing this...

Last night

2009-01-05T11:29:00.002+07:00

I slept at around 3am last night. When half a sleep half awake, i felt i totally lost my memory. I dun know who i am, i dun know where i work for, i dun know anybody even her. She walked pass by me, but i was just feeling that i used to know her but wasn't sure if it is her. I was scared, i was in horror, i was somewhere in the deep blue sea...i was afraid of everything around me. I was trying to open my eyes but still, i could not totally open it...i dun know if i was asleep, but i think i wasn't...Well, i dun know...it just terrify me...i am scared i will lose my memory as last night...hopefully, i will not.

i am surviving in a disform mood, i can't concentrate, i can't do anything right...my body is arching. i dun live in a heathly lifestyle...i am doing excercise which is good, but i dun eat after that, i just went straight to have drink, morning, i din eat but went straight to drank coffee...let see how long can i survive with all these...

I wanna be bad, i wanna be dirty, i wanna be someone that i never put myself to. but i am not in the mood to do it now ... Wish i can forget everything and start with a dirty lifestyle ... i wanna everybody say i am bad, i am stupid, i dun like my life now...

Well, just a writing.

bla bla....

2009-01-03T17:30:00.002+07:00

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look ? ..i was trying to write the word bla...but see how many can i get it correctly ? ...hum...i have been using computer for 8 years..but i can't get my fingure to type correctly..m i a poor typer or my mind just could not be controlled ? ....

well think i want to write one story, but surely i will not put it up here...lolz....well, i dun know what i am talking about now...nonsense....sleep sleep..whathanak......

I could not sleep...

2008-12-26T16:36:00.000+07:00

i dun know why recently i could not sleep even i try so hard to...My brand just went round, round and round, and can't stop...is this another disease i am having....god..help..

My name again

2008-12-26T16:34:00.001+07:00

My New Name from my Fr....

+ Worthy frenz...
+ Adviser???
+ Thoughtful....
+ Helpful...
+ Awesome...
+ Naughty....
+ Attentive...
+ Kind-hearted...

But where got naughty ? i am not lah...

I got her a ring :)

2008-10-27T14:07:00.002+07:00

Everybody say i am good, i do good to her, i give her pride and everyting and she loves me of course. But in fact, i have been bad, i have treated her so badly, i used strong words, I dun bring her fun, i dun bring her out as what i should be doing...but she never mind, she just simply support what i have done...Now i realize i should so sth for her...and yes, i got her a ring on her coming bd...Hope to get her smile lolz:)

What am i up to now..

2008-10-05T21:04:00.001+07:00

i know i am wrong in doing all these to you. I dun want to but it just happen naturally. Maybe i am bad now. Wish i am who i was before...

New quot

2008-09-24T18:43:00.000+07:00

"Worry is useless"

Just fee like posting old pictures lolz.

2008-09-24T18:32:00.005+07:00

I just viewed my old pictures when i was in Uni and feel like posting them. Well, i look so much different now...( i know they all ugly, but duh, it is my blog lolz..)

Miss all my teammates lolz

Speaking the truth

2008-09-24T18:27:00.002+07:00

I have been all the while speaking on what is in my mind. But i feel it does not give me any good. It just make people get angry. I should learn to speak soft no matter what is inside. I feel this will everybody around love me and i think this will make my life happy always. so yeah, let me try this out, it may work lolz..

Still awake,

2008-09-19T03:24:00.003+07:00

I should be sleeping at this hour as i will need to work also tomorrow, but my brain just can't be relaxed. I have thought of alot of things. Thinking of love, life work and everything. I don't feel i am settled now even with work. I have a good job that everybody wishes for, but i dun feel that this job is the one that i will be living with for my rest life. I still feel i am in the middle of the boat which ccan't yet get to the bank. Everything i am doing now is temporary, i feel. When i am going to have my permanent job and what will that be...god please guide me... Tired brain...

The true fact

2008-09-02T23:47:00.002+07:00

Sometimes you do not have to say right or wrong when u get knocked or u knocked someone, They will just say coz you get drunk. Well, so just accept what they say, with no argument...

Okie, Tonight is my first night here in new house, i do not feel sleep at this hour. Guess i will have to take some pill so i can sleep and wake up tmr early. Gotta see the doctor for my neck and head problem also lolz...yes, sleep sleep..@#$$@$#

The feeling of connection

2008-09-02T07:32:00.002+07:00

The feeling of connection came back to me again. I mean the bad connection. It used to tell me mostly correct of what i should be knowing. Now it came back, it back to tire my brain. I am not too sure if it still tell me correctly or i just think too much and my brain get sick. Well, whatever it is, just let it be and let see if my brain still functioning after all these.

I complete my move to my house this morning. I know it would take hours if you help me, but duh, i can finish it much faster alone..well with the fact that i am not that organise like u do. I just anyhow pack it...a total of 7 bags is my stuff. yes, now need to unpack the last 3 bags...got to do it after work. lolz, pretty lot of things to finish today, but brain dun work well as it used to...help...:!!!

My car get fixed

2008-09-01T14:56:00.002+07:00

I have got my car back this morning, but still it is dirty will need to wash. but when can i have time to do it. everything seem to be in need urgently, but i have no feeling to do it as yet. Still struggling though.

Anyway, last night i had a very bad dream, i was scared of for the whole night... well, anyway, i will try to move my house this evening as tmr will be my last day in the appartment. hopefully i can have time to finish it tonight lolz...

My dear God

2008-08-31T12:22:00.000+07:00

My dear god, what have I done wrong that make you give me this hard burden. I have all the way been good. I don’t steal, I never do any against others, I never do any guilt, I have today is because of my own hard work, I struggle with my own will, and you give me chance to archive, but why now torture me this much, you give me pressure, you tide me too hard…Could you please give me some space to move. I am tired, I am stressed, I can’t breathe with your tide. Is this what you want to see in me. If yes, please just take my breathe away, I dunt wanna stay with this tension. It is too hard for me. I beg you, pleas I beg you.

They are all just too hard for me. I can’t do it all alone, I have no more will, I have no more confident, but look do you give me space to give up. Could I ever do that. I have to put all my left over gut to do all the work under this pressure. Could you please one time give me smile, give me some mate to cheer me up. Why everybody is not around when I am this down. I have always tried my best to help, but now I need them back, where are they? Just simple help they don’t do. Why is this world so heavy. Am i neither god nor evil, so please please treat me like normal person… I just need more breathe to survive…I bed you.

Sunday 13th July 2008

2008-07-13T21:16:00.002+07:00

Just feel like writing today. So yeah, today i had pretty packed day. I joint my friends going to Beoung Thom, primerily to see some furniture there and also to relax and have fun with them. They are pretty good in joking. We had quite a good time there plus good food tet hehe...We headed back home at around 5pm then i went jogging. I ran from my appartment heading to royal palace and then walked around there before heading back. Was pretty tired lolz. Then my friends also asked for dinner...great place great ppl and great joke lolz...especially, i am paid for..hehe..good eh ? right no more to write now..:D

Nose Bleed

2008-06-09T12:03:00.002+07:00

My nose has been very strong since i was born. Even i got smashed hardly, it wont bleed. But now i dun know what wrong with it that it bleeds so easily. It has been bleeding just now and harder than my previous few times. Is it kind of disease or what ? Dun really know, but guess got to see the doctor, hope they can help....hate the doctor here though...

Tired.

Regrete of being good

2008-06-09T09:22:00.002+07:00

I was working on my pc. The phone range and i quickly pick it up and answer. You were asking me for help as you are in trouble now. So i quickly throw my job aside and drove to see you. I brought u to the place u like where i dun think i should go with u. But i dun care, i just bring you there. I spent my time entertaining you, it deprived my sleeping time. But all i got back was the blame. They blame me for bringing you there. It irritating and i really dun want to be this good again...Sorry to say all these, but i am just so pissed with all these...

Cheers to myself...

Love to the fullest

2008-04-15T09:41:00.002+07:00

i have been busy pretty much with my job that i am doing now and left this blog alone. it does not mean that i forget it though, but just do not have time to write. Now i am a bit free as waiting for my gf having class now. I am in the computer room in Nagoya university now.

Love to the fullest simply means unconditional love to me. No matter what happen, no matter under what circumstances, we still love each other, we still walk hand in hand, we still walk side by side, our world is the world of 2 and no others around...if you can love a girl to the fullest, the love will flourish and nth can even come close to destroy... so my suggestion for guys out there is...if you love someone, please love to the fullest ... that will help u to have less of uneccessary pain....

My new hairstyle

2008-04-05T09:33:00.004+07:00

I know you would laught when seeing this...but dun care lah...wanted to be wild one day only..hehe

Waiting for its owner

2008-04-05T09:28:00.002+07:00

bought this in VN. Can you guess what it is ? hehe...clearly it is a tooth brush holder lah. I bought 2, i put mine in the pig and waiting for another in the tiger...but when will the owner arrive huh ? it probably spoil before you come and use it lolz...will try to maintain it though..:D

Trip to VN

2008-03-24T09:23:00.001+07:00

I will fly off to VN for the workshop today and be back on 27th March 2008. Dun feel like going, but it is a company requirement...so yeas, just go lolz...see u once i am back... anything u want from VN ? hehe...

Current Schedules

2008-02-06T15:00:00.000+07:00

080208 - Back to Cambodia
090208 - Go to Kratie province for my brother 3 years' ceremony (it is not a fun one but i hope it is going well)
110208 - Starting working
13-150208 - Probably local trip to province. It is not yet confirmed but I am most likely going as i will have leave from 13 to 15th. I may go till erlll 17th as it is sunday.
180208 - Heck...start working and there is CRC function. gonna be a busy day again lolz...
what else after that ? Well, boring life as usual lolz....got back to work...sight...

Reunion lunch

2008-02-06T14:56:00.001+07:00

It has gone and ready for the reunion dinner. I think i can have 2 at the same time, so which should i go ? hehehehe....let see first lolz...:D

I got a gift

2008-02-05T23:52:00.000+07:00

I just get a gift from my fr today. It kinda early to get it today, but well she said she will need to fly off tmr so give today lolz... Never expect to get it, but also nice to get it...hehe...feel happy. but never thought of buying for her and prob too late alr lolz..hehe...so waiting for next year chos na, okie ? hope u dun mind..kekek...(it is a shirt anyway :P)

I will be Groom mate

2008-02-05T22:51:00.000+07:00

Well my fr ask me to be his mate during his wedding. Kinda dun want to do as pretty busy with work and all. but he kinda insist as he does not have anybody else to help on this. So, let see how i will behave on that day..kinda feel sth..heheheh....it is on the 27th of february....scared now..heheh..

No more gutss..

2008-02-03T16:07:00.000+07:00

Everything left for me is the second or third choice. Can't i have the priority ? or i am not that needed enough to have it...well, this just buzz my mind. M sorry to say that i have no more gut to celebrate it no matter what is it gonna be arranged...all i got will jst be a second or third choice.

Hide and Lie

2008-01-26T09:50:00.000+07:00

ppl lie and hide for their own sake...so what am i being so frank for ? ...

2 fines in a day

2008-01-10T14:33:00.000+07:00

what a day! got 2 fines per day.
1- crossing the red light... i dun know what i was looking at and was thinking about that made me forgot to look at the traffic light....got fine.
2 - just about half an hour later got another fine coz turn left. i also what was my mind thinking about that forgot that this road can't turn left...i use that road everyday...what is it in me lol....

sigh..nvm let see how many more fine will i get for the rest of today...

Dream...

2007-12-26T09:20:00.000+07:00

I din dream of her quite some times. but i dun know why it appears to me in the past week...what is that for...?

My new HP and number

2007-12-25T17:04:00.001+07:00

Old phone with new number 092 1234 21

New phone with old number 016900078

Some pictures i took in SR

2007-12-25T16:48:00.000+07:00

With one actress whom i dun know the name lolz..who is she ? can anyone tell ?

With Daro and Sonica....Dun ever say i am fat lolz, coz i am even fatter than that now..hehe

Is there sth happening?

2007-12-25T13:44:00.000+07:00

i felt not well at all these days. my left eyes is shaking for the past week...what is happening ? OR I AM JUST BEING TOO SUPERSTITOUS?...

Christmas eve

2007-12-25T09:23:00.000+07:00

I remember christmas eve during my school time, it was so fun playing around with all my frs, talking to them and stuff. but look, how is my christmas eve now ? It is nth. i drove around seeing couples being together at cool place. that is nice. but what do i have ? call fr to go along ? no one is free, coz they are all busy with their special one. So there is only liquor is with me. Noone else. that is all my life is about. Went to River house just want to destress, had some drink and went back my hotel to stay up all night...Can i have a happier life ? Well, i am happy man, so dun complain....just take what u get, okie ? ...

Me

2007-12-16T11:03:00.000+07:00

Sometimes i just dun understand myself why i keep doing things that upset myself and even ppl around me while i actually have enough thing to enjoy. i kinda have everything to enjoy, i have frs around, i have family, but look what what i have done...i just keep myself hidden from the crowd, i keep unsetting my life, keep my life bored...i really should get to enjoy myself, i found not worth keeping myself like this. life is short, and i shall enjoy.

anyway, yesterday i went to my fr's surprise bd. he is lucky i woud say. i got quite drunk with them and knock my knee cap which i totally dun know till now...it hurts now...:((...ok, that it...

RISA BD

2007-12-13T16:34:00.000+07:00

need to wait till next year to have this time again :(

My niece's bd

2007-12-13T16:31:00.000+07:00

Today is my niece's birthday. but look... i haven't done anything so far. still staring at the pc...sigh...sorry my dear, u have a bad uncle...:)..

Bad luck sign

2007-12-11T08:41:00.000+07:00

just bad luck is going around me now. i dun know what will or is happening now. my arm is hurting, my phone is spoiled and bad luck sign around....

today post

2007-12-08T18:31:00.000+07:00

i have been doing some stupid things these days and feel it is not worth it at all. will refresh myself with some new fun things lolz...

I am tired of calling...

2007-11-30T23:09:00.000+07:00

with no answer... i want to make it sweet..but look, mostly they were not answered...

My new hairstyle

2007-10-30T08:42:00.000+07:00

As promise, below are my new hairstyle..hehe..dun laught, okie ? :P

in my car :)

in my room....anyway, i feel i look so fat now...sigh..

clueless

2007-10-26T15:29:00.000+07:00

New haircut

2007-10-23T17:14:00.000+07:00

have gotten my hair cut with new style...unfortunately i do not hve camera. token some by my phone and will upload it once i have time to upload lolz....so whoever visit my page, need to wait to support my new hairstyle, k ? kk...:D

bad luck again

2007-10-22T16:56:00.000+07:00

another bad luck to me again today. i was just walking on the walking path to this internet shopm, and there was one stupid motobike ran into me. well, just got small scracth on my legs. nth serious, but it is just so bad luck happen to me one after another....

bad day

2007-10-21T19:05:00.000+07:00

met one stupid guy who drove at a wrong direction and horn me like i was wrong. They have power, drive good car, have high position, but what the heck can't even follow such trafic rules like a small and normal and young person like me ? are they powered not to follow anything ? such an idiot.

Realization

2007-07-15T07:52:00.000+07:00

"Give more expect less, live life happily" is my manager's favorite quote. Now i come to agree with him more and more now...expect less, okie ?

Saigon

2007-06-29T13:34:00.000+07:00

TOday is my second day in Saigon. The place here is quite developed. about to write more..but now need to go out..sigh.....kk..next time.. hello from Saigon

From Hanoi

2007-06-23T13:59:00.000+07:00

I am changing from student life to working life. Though this work might not be a good one, but i thought it is a good start to have proper carrer in Cambodia and i thought i would be happy. But things is not the same as what i thought as from the time i start my work , i start to be busy and have no time for her. I start to lose her from time to time...She said, i think of my work first before her. It actually not true, i am just busy with work and not much time for her as i used to...things start to change...but nvm...i just can't quit my carrer...let thing goes as it is destined to...I am being so passive...

back to singapore

2007-06-17T08:07:00.000+07:00

At the airport and waiting for my flight now. I dun know why i can get connection here. prob it is my luck..so yeah....post it here..hhee

PS: i guess u forget about my return. ALso dun any balance to sms u and u dun seem to have time for it as well. Sorry that i will not be able to recieve ur sms from next hour and u will not know it...

wathanak

Human thought

2007-06-09T23:53:00.000+07:00

Human is just so hard to satisfy. When u don do good to them, they say, u are bad. but when we do good to them, they see it as u do it for return...So what to do ?...

One sad thing...

2007-06-08T10:33:00.000+07:00

this morning i was shock to know that one of my colleagues crash his car last night after meeting with the clients. I was with him before the accident and then i went with other colleague. then there was this accident. I heard it is so serious as all the front part is damaged, but luckily that he is ok....God blesses him....

One interesting thing in Jakarta

2007-06-07T13:29:00.000+07:00

The traffic in Jakarta is very bad. Sometimes, i got stuck in the traffic for 3 hours for such a short distance. So the government does not allow any car with less than 3 ppl to run on certain road, one of which is the road to my office. So when i go to office alone, the driver will need to ask one guy, called Junker, to board with us so that we can drive on that way. And u know what ? we need to pay for that guy to board our car...so funny,right ? Well, i am not sure if this happen in other country, but it is strange to me..lolz...

Anyway, i kinda like the food here. Food that i like so far is, Nasi Padang ( they will just give us like 10 different dishes when we get in and let us choose which to eat), chicken porride( it is just so nice...) and just now i ate Sotong Petawi, it is also very nice to me..hehe..i like the food here lolz..much better than those in Singapore....

It has been long time.

2007-06-07T13:26:00.001+07:00

It has been long time that i did not update anything on my blog. I am jus tired after my work. Anyway, i am doing fine in Jakarta. I have change my schedule to fly to Singapore on the 17th of June rather than 18th as previously scheduled. So i will have 1 day or rather half a day to enjoy in Singapore....After that i will fly off to Hanoii on the 18th of June....I just know that working life is tiring lolz...

i am not happy

2007-05-31T18:11:00.000+07:00

i am not feeling well today. Guess still get the hang over from last night...but well, i can't stay in the room alone...will just go for a drink again...let's see how much can i drink tonight...and wish i can still survive to work tmr ...:(

feeling sad now, anyway...

my whereabout

2007-05-20T20:33:00.000+07:00

It has been long time that i din post any. I have started my work for about 3 weeks alr. Anyway, below is my whereabout for the next 2 months:

22nd May: Fly off from SIngapore to Jakarta.
18th June: Fly from Jakarta to Singapore
18th June: Fly from Singapore to Hanoii
28th June: Fly from Hanoii to Ho Chi Ming
6th July: Fly from Ho Chi Ming to Phnom Penh.
13th July Fly from Cambodia to Singapore for graduation
17th July: Fly from Singapore to Cambodia to work.....

Headache....

Because of a Singer

2007-05-05T01:00:00.000+07:00

because of a small prob, she told me "we should take sometime out". Okie, i respect this decision. Plan is changed. I will go to Indonesia for 1 months attachment and then back to VN for another month...so let just do as u wish" i.e. we should take sometime out" for this 2 months... Sorry, to say, i will never support that, no matter when...

Finished 152 emails.

2007-04-29T22:46:00.000+07:00

I just finished reading all 152 emails in my mailbox. I feel sweet, loved, and...many more. There were sweetness, care, love, and some lies inside those. Most of those are sweet that could bring smile to me most of the time. I am missing those starting time where both of us seem so eager to reply, read and write each other's email. But no more now...it is so quiet there. There is incoming email only when i sent out...:(...sigh....where is the writer now ??? been waiting for whole day still dun appear..sigh..nvm i go to sleep now...good night

A boring sunday

2007-04-29T21:04:00.000+07:00

My friend asked me to meet for lunch or dinner today, But i refuse as i just want to stay at home and sleep well before i start my work tomorrow. But..hey, i don't know that staying at home alone is this boring lolz. There is only me in the whole house. So i have been walking here and there alone. I should have gone out with my friend lolz. Anyway, not too bad as i finished one movie...hehe..tmr, i will start work at 830am so need to wake up at around 7am. Bless me to wake up ontime at least for the first day at work ...

Cleaning day

2007-04-28T15:49:00.000+07:00

Today i woke late as usual. I decided to clean my my messy room. I took about 2 hours just to clean it. Even though it is not completely finished, it looks good and more order now. I still have the waredrob to be cleaned. It looks so messy. So yeah, it is tomorrow work. I just want to change the way live from a lazy student life to a working life...Hope it will remain clean :P...lolz.

I am back in Singapore.

2007-04-27T09:45:00.000+07:00

It has been awhile that i did not update my blog as i was busy with my exam and away on my holidays. Now i am back in Singapore and have time to access to Internet.

I am just back from Laos and Thailand for holiday. It really was nice being with friends to talk, joke, and wander around those countries. First, we flied to UdonThani, border btw thailand and Laos, as the direct fly from Singapore to Laos is relatively more expensive. So we flied to Thailand and then take bus to go to Vientiane. It was quite an experience to cross the border. U will also learn how people cheat you when u can't speak the language. We took multimode of transportation to reach there, flight, bus, and then tuk tuk. We have laos friend, so he was waiting for us there and help us to settle down in the guest house. It is cheaper in Laos than in Cambodia. So we kinda eat and buy a lot of stuff there. We stayed there for 2 days and then headed to Luang Prabang at night time so that we can save both time and money :P. We board the bus around 730pm and reached Luang Prabang at 630am in the morning. Then we took Tuk tuk to our guesthouse. We went to Waterfall and the budha cave (there is other name, but i forgot). Oh, forgot to tell, the most interesting thing is, Girl in luangprabang is so pretty. Some of my friends alr plan to go back there to work..lolz..We stayed there 2 nights and then took bus back to Vientiane as there is no route from luang prabang to thailand. We spent about 11 hours again. This was a tiring day as after 11 hours on the bus, we took tuk tuk to the border, and then bus to Udon Thani town, and another 11 hours to Bang kok. So totallly, it was around 25 hours of travelling.

Actually, the planned was changed. I wanted to go chiang mai before going bangkok as then i will fly back to singapore. But one of my fr said there is nothing there to visit in ChiangMai so yes, stayed only in Bangkok lolz. We went to quite a number of places in Bangkok like dreamworld, palance, and shoppping centers. I quite like dream world. I like the snowhouse part. We played so wildly inside the house. We throw the snow balls to each other, fight each other, and skate. We kinda compete against each other for every game. It was so fun going there with them. And the most fun part is the talk. They are just good at making joke lolz. Well, now back to singapore. Seem there is nth to do beside waiting for my work to start on this 30th. Boring to talk about work..sigh...

No substantial outcome today.

2007-03-20T16:30:00.000+07:00

I have 3 things to do today. I picked up my research work which requires me to write program in Gams for warehouse optimization. I did try it; however, i could not get anything out of it. I dropped this work and quickly get the second job which is easy so that i can relax my brain yet at the same time get some progress. The second work is to write script for Malayu conversation. I finished it. After that, i pick my third work which is to do my Shipping logistic report which i still have lot of work to do on it. Till now, i also did not get anything out of my research. The information is just too scattered around... Till now, i still dun have anything done substantially yet. Let pray for me to finish at least my research work as i need to present it to my prof tmr....

anyway, here is the link for my project in cambodia: http://youtube.com/watch?v=IHdYJI8uZmQ

Which way should i go...?

2007-03-15T22:31:00.000+07:00

People are trying hard to get chance; however, it is paradoxically that sometimes it is also hard for us to decide when we have many choices at the same time.

I have 2 choices for me right now. first, to continue my master degree in SMU. second, to work back in my country. My professor seems to encourage me to apply for master degree program and he sorta assure me that i will get it if i apply as he will support me for it. If i get it, i will need to spend 1.5 more years in SMU to do research for my graduate certificate. It sounds pretty interesting with the fact that SMU will train and prepare us to get into top univeristy in the US or UK. So if i choose that stream, i will be getting Phd at the end...and then what i am going to do ? Being professor ? Yes, i dun mind to be, but not in Cambodia as the salary is too cheap to compensate with hard work to get a Phd from top uni in the US. So will i be professor in Singapore or in other countries ? Yes, i would like to, but the thing is i ultimately want to go back home with everybody in Cambodia. I am just sick of being alone.

If i choose my second choice which is to work in Cambodia, it would also be good as i will have a nice and joyful life in cambodia. It is very rare as well to get this chance to work with this company back home. I will be able to build my network extensively, hopefully, with this carrer.

Well, it sounds that i am so lazy and do not want to take the challenge, and overcome difficulties in being alone. It is just that somehow, i am tired of all those and i want to enjoy my life. If i choose option 1, i will be spending like 4 more years in hardship and work like hell...I simple just want a joyful life, yet i also dun want this rare opportunity to get a Phd....well, what should i choose ?...

Back from Malaysia

2007-03-10T15:54:00.000+07:00

I am just back from Malaysia. Tell u what is stupid about me today ? I missed the flight. So stupid.... i dun know why i kept dragging dragging to leave the hotel. Actually, i planned just right as it is not far from the hotel to KL central to take buz to the LCC airport. However, the taxi driver miss the turning point and need to drive one big round to get to that point again. So i miss the bus leaving at 6am and take the 630am bus. So i was late about 5 mins (45 mins check in before the flight)...Hack... i spent 1 hour to go to the airport, Miss flight, and spend another 1 hour back to KL to take bus, and spent 5.5 hours to be back to SIngapore....Stupid and careless me, This flight missing screwed up all my schedule for today...sigh***********....so get to work now or else will die lolz...:(...see u

think think and think

2007-03-03T00:28:00.000+07:00

today i went to networking session organized by office by career service of my school. It was not a good one as there is no food :)...and later, i went to Mythbuster to visite all the graveyard and all those scary places..i dun feel scary but rather dirty..all those abandoned places...well, nice to see sth new though...what is more ? i dun know why i keep thinking thinking and thinking....going crazy one day soon...why can't i just accept the fact that things have changed ? stupid me...

Got back my malay midterm

2007-03-01T22:57:00.000+07:00

My TA is so efficient...she marked our paper so fast. i got back my score. i got 8/10. well, it is not really good, but not too bad as well...then got a super boring bio class which i always feel so sleepy...

anyway, feel so disconnected lolz...

wathanak

One last one for today...

2007-02-25T20:30:00.000+07:00

I am feeling so nice now after watching this movie and descripe in my last journal...so gotta mug now..kekek...

Nice and touching movie

2007-02-25T20:13:00.000+07:00

Today i feel lonely and wanted to find someone to talk to, but i just can't find one even her. It just happen she is busy today. So i just browsed here and there then come to watching movie at aznt.

I chose to watch the movie called : "I Not stupid too". it is a singaporean movie which depicts about family story. It really is a touching movie that could touch deeply in my heart. At the first half of the movie, i did not find it a nice movie and sort of boring. worse is that it skipped that is quite irritating. However, after a while i got addicted to the movie and gradually put myself into the story.

The story talked about family that is too busy with their work and leave their children behind. The parents never take care or listen to their children. Those kids felt so left behind and unappreciated even though they try to be good and did well in what they like. Ultimately turn those kids to do things that is an offense. The most touching part in the story was the small kid who save his money and even steal money from school to buy his father time which costs 500. It was so touch in the scense that his father wipe him and ask him why he steal the money. then he answer, he save it to buy his father's time so that his father and mother can attend his performance as others' parents. The tears dropped endlessly from this parents' face. Another touching scene was when their father realize his mistake and then wanted to save his son from robbery accusation. He ask the old lady to accuse him in stead of his children. (well, you got to watch then you would know how touching the scene is).

This story pretty much teach us to respect each other liking and try to listen up to each other. We can't just push too much to the direction that we like. People has strengh and weaknesses. so listen to them and understand what is their needs and what they can do well. It also teach parents not to spend too much time on work rather than family. Money is of course important, but family would end up in sorrow if the family become the slave of it. Money is of course bring in happiness, but trust me, this happiness can't sustain long without love. "WITHOUT MONEY WE CAN STILL SEEK HAPPINESS, BUT U CAN'T DO WITHOUT LOVE AND RESPECT"..trust me, it is true...

what am i going to do today ?

2007-02-25T12:44:00.000+07:00

Should i go out with frs again ? Or should i sleep ? or do work ? Yay, i got so much work to do, but i dun do any....bad me..

Saturday fun =)

2007-02-25T12:25:00.000+07:00

It was a real nice day to me. I had plenty things to enjoy with friends. There was a beach soccer at Sentosa that i was supposed to attend as i was the captain for the team, yet i am the only one who is late for the matches. This is really bad, but well i just got sth else on to do. I actually, went to interprete for the marriage at the solemnization. The bride is from cambodian so she need me to interprete for her during the ceremony.

I reach there at about 1130 as appointed time, however, they were early so all of them were waiting for me. I feel guilty as quite lot of ppl were just waiting for me. Right after my arrival, they started. The bride were so pretty and lovely. I took some of her pictures also, and will share with you when i have feeling to. :P. I did feel good to see such as nice and sweet smile from both of them. What is more, i got money from it as well...Nice lolz..:)

They also invited me for the lunch; however, i could not join as my frs were wating for me at Sentosa. So i rush to take taxi to come to join them. Play with them, so joyful even we lost the game...we had so much fun. Guess what ? It was my first time swimming in singapore since i came here. It was pretty nice. We play quite wildly in the sea...lolz...After that, we made our way back home.

It was so fun at day time, so how about night time ? here come the ideas. We made appointment to meet at 930am at night at Orchard to see the Ching Gay (Not sure about spelling) as there is one cambodian girl representing our countries to bear our flage. So we wanted to take picture, yet it was so sad that i got sudden appointment and could not join them...so bad lolz, did wanted to join them, but that appointment was more important...U know what it is, and why it is important ? U should be able to guess lolz..kekekek...

At around 12am, when i finish the work, then i took taxi again (sigh..so many taxi today..surely broke :( ) to go to Zuok for clubbing. There were 7 of us and i was the one who late again...:( .. poor them to have such a fr like me...hehehe...so we went in to the club for a dance. It was so nice, all of us dance so wildly...I never expect them to dance this nice lolz...Esp. my junior..he dance really nice...hehehe...i should retire alr after seeing him dance...kekeke...We dance till 4am. We were really exhausted. Actually there were 2 clubs inside that. it opens till 6am, yet one of us got work to do at 8am. So she suggest to come back home. So yes, we all came back home at around 4am. I reached home at around 440am and get to sleep around 5am. So tired, but was so fun lolz...looking forwards to having this time again with them....It will surely be nice...:)...

Ma new chop stamp...:)

2007-02-20T13:08:00.000+07:00

she keep saying i dun understand

2007-02-17T16:07:00.000+07:00

Yes, i am the person who does not understand, that is what she postulats. I am sorry ... i dun understand why you dun tell me what is happening and when i dun feel happy, u said i dun understand...so why dun u just tell me to understand from teh start before even i get sad ?...

Midterm

2007-02-15T23:10:00.000+07:00

Today i had biology midterm. Actually, it was easy but i can't do. it is about memorizing the concept, but i could not. so yeah, it was just like that lolz.

Not too bad after that, as i got back my second assignment with perfect score. So yes, it can back up my midterm...:)

Dinner with my professor

2007-02-09T23:12:00.000+07:00

Today i do not have class, yet i need to go as i have to monitor the quiz for my TA class. After the quiz, i went for appointment with my prof for dinner. Actually, he asked me for long ago but it seems that he is busy and only today we had chance to eat together. Initially, he confuse that there is cambodian restaurant nearby my school, but actually there is no. it is myanma food. From what i know there is only 1 cambodian restaurant located in East coast. So he asked me what i want to eat. I thought of the lunch time that my gf want to eat japanese food, so i suggested japanese food, so yeah we went there. i ordered beef teriyaki. It was quite nice lolz. After that, came back home, finished my japanese movie and waiting for my gf to come online to chat now. Dun know why miss her alot today :)...yes, she is coming online soon, i guess...so wait a bit okie, wathanak ? :)...

Find limit

2007-02-09T21:00:00.002+07:00

Equation

2007-02-09T21:00:00.001+07:00

Expand

2007-02-09T20:59:00.000+07:00

Find x

2007-02-09T20:26:00.000+07:00

human

2007-02-08T23:52:00.000+07:00

i dun like lying, but prob i will need to accept it as i am living around human.

My old pic

2007-02-03T19:36:00.000+07:00

If being crazy make us happy, so why mind being so??

Vietnamese dancing girls

2007-02-02T23:16:00.000+07:00

I am so lucky, right ??hehhehe...

I am worthless.

2007-01-29T23:17:00.000+07:00

A surprise bd

2007-01-26T22:50:00.000+07:00

Today i went for my hotline counselling training as usual. What surprised me was my very lated birthday celebration. Actually, it was not only for me but for everybody who was born in December and January. There are 7 all together. though it is not only for me, but the feeling was still so nice to have everybody in the whole class sing a bd song for us. The cake was so big as well as it is for like 50 people. I took one bite, it tasted good lolz.

After that i went for my meeting. There was a refreshment as well. We ate Nasi Lemak. COuldn't eat much though as i was so full that time. Now hungry again, gosh...

My day

2007-01-23T18:39:00.000+07:00

Today i intended to dedicate the whole day for my research as i will need to report to my prof. tomorrow morning. But look guys, this is what i actually spent:
- Woke up at 10am.
- Refreshed myself, done at 11am.
- Went for my lunch with my housemate.
- Back to sleep.
- Read the paper, starting at around 2pm or 3pm.
- Back to sleep again at 4pm.
- Woke up again at 6:30pm
- Posting picture till now.
....Later:
- Go to eat again...
- Then ?????? Well, i really need to read the paper after that lolz. or else i will need to tell him that i am sick and can't meet him...:P...
Alright, i am going to eat now...So, wish me nice dinner, okie ? :)

One last one...

2007-01-23T18:36:00.000+07:00

Still cute...

Hungry huh, ...?

2007-01-23T18:33:00.000+07:00

Aren't they pretty?

2007-01-23T18:32:00.000+07:00

I mean my niece not my sister lolz :P

Jess dear leng phorng hun, ??

2007-01-23T18:31:00.000+07:00

Chhleat pose for picture tet...

Where are you walking to, dear?

2007-01-23T18:29:00.000+07:00

My niece become...

2007-01-23T18:28:00.000+07:00

What huh ???

Are you looking at me ?

2007-01-23T18:26:00.000+07:00

Look at how she pose!!!

My niece

2007-01-23T18:24:00.000+07:00

Cute and sexy,right ?

Wake up early

2007-01-16T08:19:00.000+07:00

Today, i woke up early, 9am. (this is early for me lolz :))...No class, but got one research paper to read and report to ma prof trm...damn it...so hard to read lolz..:(..

Bahasa Melayu-Introduction

2007-01-15T17:42:00.000+07:00

Nama saya Wathanak. saya tinggal di Ang Mo Kio. Saya seorang pelajar dari Univerisiti Pengurusan Singapura. Saya sedang menuntut dalam sistem maklumat pengurusan. Saya berumur dua puluh tiga tahun. Keluarga saya ada enam orang. Saya ada ayah, ibu, kakak, abang lelaki, adik lelaki, dan saya sendiri. Saya suka makan nasi lemak.